These are my bitches.

So this is Alice and Olivia. I kind of love them a lot. They are me bestest friends in the entire world. I seriously have no idea what I would have done without them for the last three years. They are the people who keep me sane in this world. They are hilarious as hell and probably the most badass people I know. Olivia moved away last summer and it sucked, Alice is going to visit her in Tennessee this Christmas and I am so jealous. My selfish, stupid, and controlling mother said I could not go because I was underage. That has to be the stupidest excuse ever.
Right now I am watching Pulp Fiction for the first time. This movie was so fucking trippy. Omg there was blood and killing and awesomeness but when this one chick almost died from snorting heroin it was scary as fuck. I never knew you couldn't snort heroin. Shit that is scary as hell, idk if she just snorted too much but she died and they had to shoot her with adrenaline and it was just fucking trippy. Lesson: Don't do drugs! They re bad.
I'm about to watch Mirrors with Nanea. The first time I saw this was at Olivia's house and it was so scary that we were jumping up and down on her couch screaming and we couldn't walk around alone. It was fucking terrifying. My sister loves scary movies and usually isn't scared of them but I think shes gonna be scared of this one. It was bad. Well it was a really good movie but it was so scary.

Fashion Idol 2!

Well this is my best friend/wifey. I love this girl. She is hilarious, and fun, and knows how to party. Right now, sadly I haven't seen her in like a month. I miss her like crazy. This is another person I admire for their fashion choosings. She always looks so cute. I love it. Now this chick, I would actually steal her clothes. Well borrow for a very lont time and eventually give it back maybe. Like those shorts that I just never remember to give back. I know she is getting into fashion too, as like a magazine kind of person and I can totally see her doing that. She would be in like heaven. I think I would cry if I worked at a magazine. I would not know what to do. But she would be amazing. She would know exactly what to put together and I am so jealous. I love this chick!

Fashion Idol!

This is my best friend Olivia. She is freaking hilarious, and wild, and crazy, and she is just the bestie. Anyway this is going to be a little bit of a creepy blog, but whatever. Seriously, she is my like fashion idol. She always dresses so adorably with everything and I am so jealous. I remember when she bought boots, I tried them on and I looked straight up retarded, but when I tucked my jeans into them, it just got worse. And the gladiator shoes. I remember she bought some yellow python ones and I thought they were so ugly until I got used to them and actually wore them. They are so cute. But most definitely my favorite fashion adventure we ever had at her house was when I had some fun in her dads closet. Oh my God. That was a blast, some suits with bow ties, and some heave biker pants. And her moms swim suits. Oh gosh. Fun Times. But anyway, im digressing, I love like all her clothes. She had this flannel shirt that she wore all the time. I have a gray one but mine is actually a jacket and hers was just there to look adorable. I sound like a total creep but right now she is getting into fashion and I want her ot know that she is really good. She knows what looks good and I am pretty damn glad I had such a fly best friend when she lived herw!!

Normal simplicity.

I miss my best friends. Nothing seems the same in my life at all without them. It's like everything has changed and I do not like it all. Not that the people in my life right now aren't amazing but what has been happening to me and the decisions I've made recently are not making me happy. Well they are right at the moment I make it but afterwards in the long run I'm not very happy and I miss being happy. I miss being able to just talk to my friends without something terrible happening. I miss just chillin in the car, driving around to "jay in the bay" and the infamous "mini mart." Oh the mini mart with its wonderfully delicious icee. OMG I am so digging one right now. I miss everything about what I used to do. I miss laughing with the besties, and going shopping, and eating at Genki. I miss just hanging out, not having to do anything and just be myself. I know I have changed myself for the worse just to fit in and I want to stop. It is not a good thing for me to be doing right now but I do not know what to do. I am seriously at a cross roads and I have no idea where to go. If I do what I know is right and just be good, I will loose some of the people I have grown to love in the short weeks and I could go back to how my life used to be. And if I continue to do what I am doing I will just be more and more unhappy but I will still have the people I love at school. It is a difficult decision to make because there are two very important people who love me and want me to go back to normal because they like the old kawehi who was a dork, and crazy, and hilarious. I miss the old me too, the person who was loud, and care free, and not worrying about what was going to happen the next day. I'm pretty sure I know what I am going to do but I know it is going to be hard but I love them and myself enough to do it. I know they want me to be a better person and I love them for it.

Blood Oath...

I've always wanted to make a blood oath but I've never had a reason to make one. Now I do and I am so freaking excited I made it. I made a blood oath with my bestie Erin to do everything and everything we ever wanted before she moves in December. Making the blood oath was hilarious. I am terrible with pain so having to intentionally inflict pain on myself sucked, I cut my finger a little bit and so did she. It was funny, we did this in her kitchen with her step mom watching a movie in the other room. We were already in a little bit of trouble so if they found out about this I don't think they would be too happy. But this thing was fun, and it was something I've always wanted to do and I am so glad I did it with her because she is my best friend. She understands me in a way no one else can and I love her for it.